愛情┋剪去一切,找自己一靈魂的出口Find a way for my soul


失戀以後接連的情感挫敗,改不掉的對他的沉癮,總覺得自己對感情投入的好深,腦子裡明明知道不可以這樣卻還是又傷得好疼。
深夜,室友已經熟睡,我卻不自覺得拿起手機看他是否在線上,看到自己發出的訊息被已讀不回,兩行眼淚只不住的落下,這樣的夜,好像只有我一個人醒著般,是一種空虛寂寞。
After breaking with boyfriend and the lose in an affection , Can't stop addicted to him...Always falling in to love like this so deep,even i know I can't be like that....I STILL...so feeling so pain.
After midnight,my roommate is already sleeping.I can't help my self to look my phone if he is online...when i saw me messages was read but no reply, my tears drop down at the moment. The night like that just as only me in this world is awake...feeling so empty and lonely.

明知道,把他的臉書,whatsapp,所有可以聯絡到他的方是刪的一乾二淨,會是一個絕佳的方式戒掉對這個人的習慣,但我卻沒有勇氣按下刪除鑑,我一直認為心碎過後還是可以當朋友。我選擇原諒,想念,傷痛一個人承擔。
Even I knowe  just deleated every contact of him is the best manner to forget him...but I don't have this currage,I thought after heart broken we still can be good friend.I choose to for give, missing you and bear the pain.

幾天前,剛辭去原本忙碌餐廳廚房的工作,對於離開同事感到失落,但卻又握緊拳頭想邁向新的開始,更接近自己的理想生活,這樣日復一日,每天不是上班就是睡覺的生活,勞累程度和薪水不成正比的工資,我想已經把自己安頓得好好的,安逸了好一陣子,是時後轉身離開不在留戀。
Somedays ago I quit the job of a busy kitchen,I feel sad for leaving colleagues, but also want to looking forward the new life. for the life I want to be! I already used to live in London,and feel so comfort in this way,It's time to turn back leaving the job.no need to reluctant to leave.

在倫敦的一年,真實體驗到人生的來來去去,好像縮時攝影般在我的生活中呈現。
一個人坐在床邊敲著鍵盤的同時,正在釐清自己對許多感情的依賴,雖然喜愛文字,但我不是編造故事,我只會寫自己心裡的故事,當一個人在電腦前清晰得想起幾天前的生活片段,眼眶又不自覺得泛淚了,在倫敦這麼偌大的城市大部分的人卻都只是這城市的過客,更別提人與人之間了!同事間也好,豔遇也好,在這些來來去去的人身上放下太多感情後覺得最後難過受傷的卻是自己。
The year in London , I really experienced people's come and go in my life,just like in the Time-laps photography present in my life.
When I am typing in front of the laptop.To tidy my heart and brain clearly for the people and affection That I relied....Though I love writing so much, but they are not the fairies...they are my story. When think about the life clips in somedays ago, I can;t control and cry. London,the so big city,so many people here are just as voyager! don;t mention about people and people...for the colleagues or affairs,put too much love on those voyagers in your life will only hurts yourself.

我不善討厭妒忌,但在意是騙不了自己的,既然覺得這麼傷痛,想找個屬於我靈魂的出口,想個方法給自己展新的一切,於是,我選擇的剪去留了兩年半的長髮,然後任性的染上自己最愛的橘色!髮型總能改變一個人的氣質甚至性格,當設計師再次像我確認是否要剪掉時,我毫不猶豫決定頭也不回,頭髮會在長,而新生的頭髮總是特別光亮,但人生卻不能重來,甚至無法漂白然後一直不斷換色,我無法用時光機到回,去處理這些當時的感情狀態,那就先由頭髮做為一個開始,讓我重新閃耀帶我奔回起點。
I am not good at jealous or hate someone,but I really care about then I can't lie myself. Thought I feel so pain, I really wnat to find a way for my soul...so I decided cut my hair that I keep for 2 years and half. and die it into my favorite orange color! The hair will be longer again,and always shiner than the old dry one,but Life cant be return,I cant use time machine back to change my affairs ...they cant be faded and color again,so I choose to change from my hair first , Bring my shine back and take me to the new begin !

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